Wednesday, September 27, 2006

MAMA

I just heard the song Mama by Il Divo recently and I want to post it here as a gift for my deceased mom.

Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
And for the timesI forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changedAlong the way (along the way)

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you , I miss you Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes (dry your eyes)
Cause I know you ....

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changedAlong the way (along the way)
Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

YOU

You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me

This one is my theme song on September 16, 2006 ^_^

It Might Be You

Time, I’ve been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there could be
Someone waiting home for me
Something’s telling me it might be you all of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past all of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face

Something’s telling me it might be you
It’s telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And there’s so much love to make

I think we’re gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it’s telling me it might be you
All of my life

I’ve been saving love songs and lullabies
And there’s so much more
No one’s ever heard before
Something’s telling me it might be you
Yeah, it’s telling me it must be you
And I’m feeling it’ll just be you all of my life
I’ve been waiting for
All of my life

Maybe it’s you, maybe it’s you
I’ve been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it’s you, maybe it’s you
I’ve been waiting for all of my life
It’s you, it’s you I’ve been waiting for all of my life

Monday, August 07, 2006

Precious Moment

My heart sings with joy for You gave me a precious moment yesterday. Never thought and dreamt it could be like that. Thank you for the hugs, thank you for giving him to me yesterday. May be that's what You meant, I don't know. I just enjoy that precious moment a lot.
Thank you

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

BUNDA

It's been 9 years my mother passed away. I really miss the warmth of her body, her smile, and her hugs. Thank you for making me like I am now, I've grown up to be the one you taught me to. I'm very proud of you and I know that from above, you smile to me. and you know what Mom, everybody really admires you, they said that you are great. Indeed, you are.

I always touched everytime I hear the following song. It's for you Mom, I miss you a lot, love you always.

Kubuka album biru
Penuh debu dan usang
Kupandangi semua gambar diri
Kecil bersih belum ternoda

Pikirku pun melayang
Dahulu penuh kasih
Teringat semua cerita orang
Tentang riwayatku

Kata mereka diriku selalu di manja
Kata mereka diriku selalu di timang

Nada-nada yang indah
Selalu terurai darinya
Tangisan nakal dari bibirku
Tak kan jadi deritanya

Tangan halus dan suci
Telah mengangkat tubuh ini
Jiwa raga dan seluruh hidup
Rela dia berikan

Oh Bunda ada dan tiada
Dirimu kan selalu ada di dalam hatiku

Monday, June 12, 2006

WHAT HE SAYS: "BE PATIENT"

One day I said to God, "I'm so tired, I can't go on anymore." And He said, "BE PATIENT"
Another day, I said to God, "It's too painfull, I can't go on anymore, I can't take it any longer, I don't know what to do, just ease my pain." What He said, "BE PATIENT, I will give you My strength, don't worry you can go through that."
When I weep because it's too painfull, He said "It's OK, I know and I understand how you feel because I feel it, too. I am with you always and I'm hugging you right now. Don't worry, everything will be just fine. I never leave you because you are so precious to Me."
He always by my side, always supports me and give me new strength so I can go on. Day by day passed by and it's been 1 month I can go through that, the one I used to think that I couldn't do it. It's really a miracle to me. He spoke through my friends and other people I met. I can feel it.

Now, I said to Him, "Thank you for never give up on me, thank you for being my best friend, thank you for never leave me alone."
Yesterday, I said to Him, "I think I found the one, but I'm not so sure, it seems like impossible. What should I do?" And once again, He said to me, "BE PATIENT. Let Me work on it. I give him to you."

Thursday, February 23, 2006

God's Sense of Humor

God's indeed have a very strong sense of humor.
I've been avoiding and rejecting to listen to the song of My Heart Will Go on and Endless Love as they remind me of something I don't want to remember as it's so painfull. Then, after 8 years of avoiding them, I was "forced" to hear My Heart Will Go On twice.
First, it's on a mass celebration last Saturday (Feb. 18) and it made almost cry. Secondly, I heard it in radio this Tuesday (Feb. 21) which was exactly 8 years since I last heard it.

I think it's kind of reminder that I have to let them go, free myself from this kind of circle and not mourning all the time any longer.

I want to open my heart for the new one and let things happen naturally, let them flow. I know I can handle it with HIm by my side.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I say a little pray for you

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you

While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part
Oh, how I love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only meen heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.

At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me.
I say a little prayer for you
I say a little prayer for you

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one but you!
Please love me too (answer my pray)
And I'm in love with you (answer my pray)
Answer my prayer now babe (answer my pray)
Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me (oooooooooh)